scary chaotic scribbles of a nightmarish drawing of a monster depicting this fear: the possibility that you'll pour all this time, fire, and brain‑juice into a project and still end up both invisible and alone. specifically: Being outpaced – i blew a head‑start and maybe aren't the "main character." Being ordinary – deepest dread: after all the midnight code sprints, you're just another smart dev who almost mattered. Being isolated – even if millions play the games, what if none of it fills that quiet space that says "I see you, you belong"? Strip the costumes off and it's the same fear: I might not be enough, and if I'm not, nobody's sticking around.